As for some good news, I'm back to my dreaming about grad school. I've been looking at Boston now, just incase the whole England thing doesn't come to fruition. I'd like to visit Harvard, BU, MIT, and Tufts to see what they really have going on, and also to talk to people in Anthropology/ Archaeology and maybe see what good an architecture student could add to their department... what I could do with the architecture on site (even though my mom thinks I just want to go on a dig and not take the profession seriously... but who knows? maybe that is all I'll end up wanting to get involved in). I think it's a good sign again that only a few days after getting back from Martha's Vineyard and already I want to travel again. Of course at the moment it's wanting to be back on the vineyard, or go to Boston, something like Italy, Ireland, or Egypt wouldn't be too shabby either. I would only fear that beginning a lifestyle full of travel would make me very sad when it came time to finally settle down. I wouldn't want to hurt the people I love, because I don't like being in one place for too long, but even in my everyday life I'm constantly a nomad. Every semester I've had my apartment, the Greene Building, Eric's apartment, the Yellow House, the Skank... all these different friends' places in addition to school and home and the need to travel. There's some insatiable pull for me to be everywhere and nowhere all at once.
In Italy I savored the day. Being able to wander around this new place that never ceased to interest and surprise me - it was exhilarating. I loved not being in America and being a stranger to all of the wonderful Italian people. It was only at night that I would get sad and lonely. That will probably forever be the paradox of my life. The need to travel and get away, and the equal need to return home to someone familiar who makes me happy... these two things will probably not be completely satisfied if I take up a nomadic profession.
So, what else for today? Some things that I want to do before summer is over... and how did it happen this fast?! I feel like it was just the end of May when I finally decided to drive home and no longer put up with the ongoing bullshit Studio that was spilling over into my summer time. It wasn't that long ago I had a great time being a summer counselor in the hot hot heat of July, walking students back and forth over the barren, welcomingly empty campus. Time when I was sitting outside, gathering my tan without worrying about this fast approaching 'end'. I think I understand now why most degrees are four years long, I'm ready to drop my bags now and just start a job already, no more of this professor bull, or all-nighters spent debating what a rear entrance-way will look like. I'm ready to get out there and experiment, especially since my major does not allow for this at all. And those things I'd like to do... I still haven't been to yoga yet, but I'd like to find a place to maybe join for the semester, something new and relaxing that I know can pull me out of any rut, or bad state of mind. I also want to play hockey again before I have to wait for the season. Going to the Culinary Institute for dinner is also on this list, but in this short week I'm not sure where it will fit in. I was also hoping to have my eye exam sometime before school starts, because I know fair-well that I won't want to take time to go over there once this semester ensues.
Well, this is all for now I suppose. There's only so much moaning about school and dreaming of the future that I can draw out of myself everyday.
Great Hypostyle Hall - Karnak
Hypostyle Hall - Karnak, again
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