Why is it that whenever there's a ton to be done I chose to do nothing? This is not the typical for me. I usually love budgeting my time, filling it up with so much work, spurts of organizing things, spending time writing and drawing to figure everything out... and suddenly now, I do nothing. Maybe it's that I'm on that cusp of having just some work, but not enough to really threaten my entire schedule. I think it's this workload that induces some diminishing desire to work. I could be driving off to deposit a check I've had for weeks, I could be applying for a couple more jobs I'm interested in... could be doing an Anthropology annotation, writing something of minimal intelligence for Sensory culture, and hmmm... maybe designing something?
I feel so horrible for the person I've been lately. I'm flaky, out of my skin in this job - I would never typically treat people like I do at the firm - I'm just so unhappy there I try and avoid it all. And DBell, too... I don't disrespect him or am trying to avoid him, I just don't have the motivation to do this work like I did last semester... well maybe even then it wasn't a desire it was more of a dire need to do things.
Ah, so what is in store for me this week? I'm sure it's going to pass quickly. And by the weekend I'll have to put together a competition entry - one that is now lacking in form, "zero energy" strategy, and order... hahaha - we'll see where this goes. Then there's going to be work on Friday, and horseback riding tomorrow which will highly depend on how willing I am to sacrifice my muscles in sub-zero temperatures at nine in the morning. What do I really want to accomplish? Tonight I want to find a real card for Eric's parents, and maybe there'll be one I'm satisfied with. I'd like to sketch out a real circulation diagram for studio, or some sort of experiential strategy [does it have to be linear? maybe that's where I'm getting held-up]. Writing should always get done early... I've been slacking lately - and maybe in a couple minutes I can go and find that Minangkabau reading in Folsom - write one of my three annotations due before Spring Break. I have to outline my 3-5 focus areas for the project maybe define some parameters for what needs to stay and what can be sacrificed. Alright, well I think food and some form of ambition should be in my future...
- c
I feel so horrible for the person I've been lately. I'm flaky, out of my skin in this job - I would never typically treat people like I do at the firm - I'm just so unhappy there I try and avoid it all. And DBell, too... I don't disrespect him or am trying to avoid him, I just don't have the motivation to do this work like I did last semester... well maybe even then it wasn't a desire it was more of a dire need to do things.
Ah, so what is in store for me this week? I'm sure it's going to pass quickly. And by the weekend I'll have to put together a competition entry - one that is now lacking in form, "zero energy" strategy, and order... hahaha - we'll see where this goes. Then there's going to be work on Friday, and horseback riding tomorrow which will highly depend on how willing I am to sacrifice my muscles in sub-zero temperatures at nine in the morning. What do I really want to accomplish? Tonight I want to find a real card for Eric's parents, and maybe there'll be one I'm satisfied with. I'd like to sketch out a real circulation diagram for studio, or some sort of experiential strategy [does it have to be linear? maybe that's where I'm getting held-up]. Writing should always get done early... I've been slacking lately - and maybe in a couple minutes I can go and find that Minangkabau reading in Folsom - write one of my three annotations due before Spring Break. I have to outline my 3-5 focus areas for the project maybe define some parameters for what needs to stay and what can be sacrificed. Alright, well I think food and some form of ambition should be in my future...
- c
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