Sooo what comes with a new studio? New reservations! hahaa As if today couldn't have been worse... being on my deathbed and sleeping through Anthropology, and then my crit with DBell... prooobably one of the worst experiences of my life. For some reason I can feel comfortable and excited talking about my work with my friends and classmates, but when it comes to talking to the professors I turn into the most annoying, introverted, not talkative, unexciting person. DBell was YAWNING... yes, yawning during my talk... and okay I was really trying hard not to cough on him, but I don't think he was very interested to start with. I heard him saying processes other people were trying were going to be interesting... but he didn't say that for me. He did say not to throw out my idea... but he also didn't make it sound like it was one of the better concepts he'd seen. I know I need to work on my explanations and "selling" my ideas, but I also wish I could be recognized for having good ideas, or at least quality ideas. I know my main drive in architectural design is the "experience"... I think Blindfield goes to show for this idea in my work... I'm all about giving people a rich and unique place in to wander around in the world. I'm not opposed to phenomenological work, to ideas concentrating on metaphysical experiences, things outside the realm of numbers, parametrics, abstract order... I am interested in fields, heights, the wind, sounds of rustling, the feeling of sand, of concrete, or wood, I'm interested in Brion Cemetery, Castel Vecchio, Enric Miralles, Peter Zumthor... all of these designers who put us in the moment, who shape materials and conditions that help us to remember very instantaneous feelings even years after having been inside of their dreams. I want to create places that will make people come from miles to see, to experience, places that will be written about, the scenes of love stories, dramas, adventures... a place for large groups, and the most desolate loner.
And then I think about what I want to do in my future... these are my dreams for the spaces I am creating in my undergrad curriculum... but I can't stop thinking about philosophy class from last spring. I want to go back to thinking like that... to learning about those things, thinking deeply about.... everything. I really wonder if philosophy could be the "thing" for me... I know whatever it is should let me be creative, and probably also require me to write... I love writing. I think maybe what I need to take away from these last few years in undergraduate school is how to carry on an interesting conversation... with anyone, especially these professors. I need to learn to bring up good conversation, interesting topics... maybe I need to research more into the things I am truly interested in... or just learn to articulate my true intentions a lot better. Maybe just as I have to write a question for Anthropology every week... I can try to bring in a question or two for every studio class. And what would some of those be now? Well one of my first questions is why DBell wants my tower to be a viewing deck on stilts? I don't know why I didn't question that in our discussion because that's not what I had in mind for the site at all. I really want to ask if my idea is tackling "big" enough questions... as he's brought up multiple times in our group discussions... But I guess at this point in general I just need to dive into this idea. I have to quickly make some 3d models... get something into the computer and start looking at what it's doing.... how the spaces are acting and interacting. This should be another project that I can make a walkthrough video for... one like I made for Blindfield... not that this makes my project 'awesome' by any means... but just interesting that the ideas that come from me... the ideas that I truly understand I can already visualize as being there and walking through.
Alsooo, today is Eric's 22nd birthday! I can't believe this will be our last time celebrating his birthday in college. It seems to foreign and strange that after this semester tonnss of the people we know will be gone. What is RPI going to feel like? It's already a lonely, odd place to be trapped in... but what is it going to feel like with hardly a familiar face? Even people I don't know I recognize. I'm really scared for Eric, too... what's it going to be like for him without Karl and Dre? His weekends are filled with fun times spent with Karl, and he and Dre are like brothers at school. I think I'm a lot more nervous for his happiness next fall than my own... I'll be depressed and scared enough being in thesis, but he'll be doing all of his work somewhat alone and all the way out on 16th Street.
- c
And then I think about what I want to do in my future... these are my dreams for the spaces I am creating in my undergrad curriculum... but I can't stop thinking about philosophy class from last spring. I want to go back to thinking like that... to learning about those things, thinking deeply about.... everything. I really wonder if philosophy could be the "thing" for me... I know whatever it is should let me be creative, and probably also require me to write... I love writing. I think maybe what I need to take away from these last few years in undergraduate school is how to carry on an interesting conversation... with anyone, especially these professors. I need to learn to bring up good conversation, interesting topics... maybe I need to research more into the things I am truly interested in... or just learn to articulate my true intentions a lot better. Maybe just as I have to write a question for Anthropology every week... I can try to bring in a question or two for every studio class. And what would some of those be now? Well one of my first questions is why DBell wants my tower to be a viewing deck on stilts? I don't know why I didn't question that in our discussion because that's not what I had in mind for the site at all. I really want to ask if my idea is tackling "big" enough questions... as he's brought up multiple times in our group discussions... But I guess at this point in general I just need to dive into this idea. I have to quickly make some 3d models... get something into the computer and start looking at what it's doing.... how the spaces are acting and interacting. This should be another project that I can make a walkthrough video for... one like I made for Blindfield... not that this makes my project 'awesome' by any means... but just interesting that the ideas that come from me... the ideas that I truly understand I can already visualize as being there and walking through.
Alsooo, today is Eric's 22nd birthday! I can't believe this will be our last time celebrating his birthday in college. It seems to foreign and strange that after this semester tonnss of the people we know will be gone. What is RPI going to feel like? It's already a lonely, odd place to be trapped in... but what is it going to feel like with hardly a familiar face? Even people I don't know I recognize. I'm really scared for Eric, too... what's it going to be like for him without Karl and Dre? His weekends are filled with fun times spent with Karl, and he and Dre are like brothers at school. I think I'm a lot more nervous for his happiness next fall than my own... I'll be depressed and scared enough being in thesis, but he'll be doing all of his work somewhat alone and all the way out on 16th Street.
- c
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