Just got back from applying to the Pottery Place & I'm hoping for the best! Hopefully this will begin the job-fullness of my summer... although it will kind of suck because they want me for weekends, which may = .... ahh I can't even say it... I really don't want to sacrifice the 4th of July... last summer it was sooo much fun!!! [okay i won't sacrifice 4th of july... i'll just tell them i'm helping old people walk around the plaza or something... haha okay that's really bad and a total lie, but i won't give up going to the concert in hippie-town CT].
I'm also finding some little bit of comfort hearing some secrets of the good old school of architecture... mainly how there are a bunch of people that somehow don't know how to make plans and sections?!?! [haha and some of these people are probably pretty surprising, but that just makes it all the better] also, kind of comforting to know that not many people really like or use cad... because i definitely prefer my adobe suite to that stuff. I guess it's me being kind of self-righteous, which isn't a good thing, but in a time when I'm really uncertain of what to do next semester, i feel like it's a good time to evaluate where i really fit into everything. I mean this school is built of brown nosers.... i mean really i feel like anyone 'up' on the list of students has really groveled at some point in their career... and those who are really up there... haha it's not even groveling when it's to that level... it's just being pathetic. Looking back, I guess I did somehow have a good relationship with Saunders? I don't really know how... I mean I wasn't in his section and only talked to him about four times that semester [and usually just in passing], but I guess it was my still-hopeful/good attitude at the time that made a good impression on him. I was also trying to get through some - what was to me - difficult stuff like super curvy surfaces with workable voids & etc... sooo yea. I'm also starting to think... maybe if i focus on acoustics being my 'thing' i won't get quite as disappointed seeing people excel in stuff across the boards. I mean some people are great at graphics, others are good at sucking up/ voicing their 'knowledge' and then there could be me: good at wall sections and loves acoustics. I don't see anything wrong with that... in fact I feel like it's a pretty good combination for where i'm at. [it would only be remembering this security and such when i'm engrossed in next semester]
Okay, so this is me... once again trying to rationalize and reasonablize with my circumstances... something that i should be learning/have learned from The Geography of Thought is not a good way to come to decisions. I should probably be looking for 'the middle way' in these circumstances [based on the fields of thought i like to ahere to...] but i'm so inexperienced in this whole act of decision-making, i really don't know what to dooo! Ah, i'm so so sorry to whoever reads this... having to listen or read rather, day by day about me not being able to decide what to do with my life. PLEASE if you have any ideas or suggestions I am here and waiting to hear what people have to say about this whole architecture - philosophy/acoustics situation.
-c
oh, p.s.! i got an upgrade from grande to venti at starbucks today [they ran out of grande cups]! yayyaya! my lucky day!
... hahah yes, this is the sort of thing that makes the day of a poor jobless youth.
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