funny how things turn out

Funny how I had planned all week long to go back to Troy today and begin all the work due Monday... and instead I stayed home, slept til noon, went shopping with Mom and Grandma, bought coffee [ yet again ], worked on my portfolio [ yet again ], and basically got nowhere on either DD or Structures. Even my mom made a comment today about how I should be working on my DD project... and she doesn't even know the half of it. Sooo I did spend about twenty minutes copying over some lines to begin an elevation... but really I didn't do very much.... it'll be fun to see how I feel tomorrow at about this time...

In other interesting news, I was briefly staring over my computer screen at the shows my dad was watching today... one of them being a history channel special on the builders of ancient Greece + Mycenae - topics that the archaeology book I bought over the summer covers intensively... and so I started talking to him and my mom about being interested in archaeology as a graduate course of study and my dad seemed to be more interested in that than any form of architecture I've brought up [ he really is a history buff ]. And it would be interesting to learn and travel to places all around the world... I mean there should [ technically ] be no place leftout when it comes to searching for ancient ruins... people have been everywhere for thousands of years... and those places that are left unexplored now could reap some of the biggest finds. I think one of my biggest fears about pursuing archaeology is that those people who've studied history as undergrads would be lightyears ahead of me on the subject matter covered in grad school. Not to mention I'm not the keenest mathematician anymore... and that would probably show on my GRE scores. But all nervousness aside, I probably would make a good archaeologist... it would be fun if I was actually involved in the digs as a student... and then as you get older - from what I've read - you usually go into academia and write about excursions that you set up through institutions/ your own funds - and really hands-on work andd writing?!?! That's really stuff that I'm good at. Maybe I could even beat-out some of those young history geniuses with my background knowledge of building... I would go into studying historical structures anyway.

I think it's so hard for everyone I know to make a decision for grad school right now, because none of us have had work experience in our given bachelors field of study. Eric is worrying himself sick about grad school and phD programs, but I know that no matter what he chooses he'll find people and things that he likes... I think it's just killing him that he really doesn't know what the real world is going to be like. I think I used to worry about this alot when I wanted to change out of architecture... but I've just come to realize that what happens in the future is kind of out of my control, and even if I don't like the first place I go to, there will be opportunities for change. I think it just puts us all in this state of confusion that we haven't held jobs in our majors, maybe we won't for the first few years we are out of school... and then what? Will we still have interest in our field of study? Will I still want to be a part of an architecture firm? Or will I look back on all that time I spent waiting to find a job... and wish I'd spent that time studying/ searching for something different? Being a young, college-person in America right now really sucks. I guess seeing my parents being "okay" now gives me some hope... but we are kind of plumitting as a nation right now... and more so than when they were young. Maybe all this bent-up frustrations and time spent waiting will make us all graduate and become super-humans. Maybe all of our anger and confusion will help us surge ahead of the Chinese and rich Eastern countries in our given fields, just because we've waited for so long to express ourselves.... I mean that would be a positive way to look at our situations now.

Ahh, I still can't believe it's back to school tomorrow and in just a day I'll be having another review. Then it's a week sprint til all the famous, "rockstar" jury members come in to give us the verdict on our [ hopefully ] finished designs.... ohhh boy.... there is sooo much stress right now. I guess I'll go and settle-down with some more Frampton reading... his in-depth monotony is actually soothing and comforting... it helps me forget about the real-life threats studio poses to my heart-rate and sanity.

- c

p.s. oh - thought I should also comment how interesting it is that I have accumulated 12 posts in the month of November whereas there's been one slow post each month since the summertime... funny how all 12 of these posts were written in a matter of four days... pretty easy to tell what good I do with my time...