long time

It's been a long time since I last wrote on this thing... Feels like alot has happened, even though I can't remember it all. Today has been horrible. Usually Tuesdays are my favorite - but not this one. It started by arriving at the barn, I thought it was going to be a funny day, all the little kids were there because they have the week off from school for Easter. There were five little ponies in the outdoor with about seven little people running around, grooming all the dirt off of them. The little kids were sooo tiny, it was like watching helmets run around because it was so hard to see the little people beneath them. Getting into the barn, I realized I was having a lesson with a guest again, this time it was Helen, a grad aero girl that usually is in the lesson after me. I thought this was the beginning to suuuck a gooddd day... I like having people to ride with and for the last six weeks or so, it's only been me. So we begin the lesson and my stirrups are wayyy too long but Lisa likes how they look and won't let me change them. Posting is a nightmare and my legs get reallly tired and strung-out trying to get my heels below a stirrup that is wayyy past my ankle. Then, Melissa the team captain comes into the lesson with a mom and her daughter who are looking at RPI for college. Everyone is friendly enough, but we end up taking twenty mintues from the lesson to talk, in which time three snobby high school girls, on their own horses come into the ring. Then, it was time for us to jump. Ahhh - it was such a nightmare. Lisa finally let me raise my stirrups for jumping... it felt like I got my legs back, but just in time to be cut-off from mean high school girls in their fat and ugly little matching ponies, and then distracted when I am trying to arrive at a fence to the point where I let Forest run out on me... looking like a complete idiot in front of this girl and her mom, and not making Lisa look very good either... Ahhh, well the lesson went on like this, hectic craziness with there being about six people riding around the tiny ring at one point... it made me realise how much I kind of like lessons by myself. Ah, also, over fences my left leg started going numb... not a good sign, and it's really sore now. Sooo then I left the barn completely exhausted, stopped for coffee and thought of taking a nap on the way back, but instead I showered and dressed causually to go and talk to the firms at the career fair... which upon arriving I realized I was wayyy too underdressed and embarrassed to talk to anyone. I was so upset. There were a couple firms that looked interesting, but I couldn't bear walking up to them in jeans, boots, and an okay top... not when most people were in business clothes.... ughhh. I left that a complete mess, and totally embarrassed. I then ran away to Target to buy tights and a ring, of course getting brushed off to the side by some woman trying to get more space in front of the tights than necessary, and leaving the store, my bags beeping five times in a row after some mom with her kids is telling me "just leave, just leave." Ahhhh!!! Then, I get home, open the ring from the packaging and realize it's wayyy too big. Great. I fell asleep after that for two hours to escape the world, and upon coming back to reality, was greeted with an entirely different sort of luck. Elsie made dinner for us... and alottt of food. I went back to Target and returned the ring, the cashier gave me $5 back from a coupon I had gotten hours earlier, anddd it seems like things have been getting better... Now I can only hope it gets better and better tomorrow.

- c