It's been a long time since I last wrote on this thing.... I can't believe a whole month has already gone by. And right now - I'm already procrastinating. I should be reading Modernity, or being productive with my portfolio... and yet I sit here in my comfy living room and write about my woes. Last week felt like one long day, it feels like its only Friday right now... so I guess it's fitting that there's a three-day weekend. Ah I feel so guilty sitting here and Marissa and Elliot are in Studio making their already awesome and up-to-date project even better, and here I am with none of my plans finished, a section that needs work, and no clue about elevations and I chose to stay in a write about it. I also merely looked at my portfolio... decided I want to include a model in it somewhere and then put it away again because I'm not going to start making a model in my living room (although that actually sounds a lot more fun than making one in Studio).
Hmm... and what else has happened? DD is one of the most confusing and amazing studios I've ever been in. I love that we have time to figure everything out, time to make lots of models, and productive feedback on our concepts/designs.... it's not a bunch of dancing about the main idea and wasting time like most of my other studios have been. I also really like the focus on construction, I think I would really love to be a draftsperson or connected to the production of DD documents in an office - I like working in this medium between pure concept and actual realization of the building. I still struggle to really be in love with my project... it's super bulky and boxy and kind of ignores the landscape and it sucks not being completely in love with it even at this point... but at the same time all of my crits have been going pretty well. James talks through everything in a really efficient manner and I try and produce as much work as I can.
Our last crit, just this past Thursday was pretty difficult though. We had good feedback and Jefferson and Dimitrious had nice comments to say.... but I was exhausted. James left me two nights in a row before everything was due to visit his girlfiend in CT, and the next night he just left early.... even though everything was due in only a few hours. My body was in such bad shape by Thurs. I had gone to bed at 5am both nights, and only got about three hours a night. I think it was just the fact that he would leave me by myself with OUR project due the next day. I got so frustrated trying to finish a physical model and all of the plans by myself... I think when I'm given two things to complete I can never choose between the two and I want to finish them both really badly. I was just so so upset that our work wasn't to the same quality as everyone else and it made me really sad. I was happy for the great crit, but really upset that James would leave me like that because I cannot be the only one putting in effort every night before our work is due to be presented.
Ahh okay, well now Mom and Ciara will be here soon so I'm going to wrap this up akwardly and not have it really come to any sort of conclusion.
- c
